Professor Vs. Student

'Let me explain the problem science has with religion.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely. '

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly.

'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student falters. 'From God'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this
world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Again, the student has no answer. 'Is there sickness?
Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do
they exist in this world?'

The student squirms on his feet. 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.. 'Who created them?' There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized. 'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice betrays him and cracks. 'Yes, professor, I do..'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him.'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of His own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain. 'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold;
otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees.'

'Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is
energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word.'

'In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. 'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought.'

'It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it..'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided..

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir.'

'So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

The professor sat down.


PS: the student was Albert Einstein

Damaged Goods

Ok. Here goes nothing. This is me being vulnerable. This is my heart on my sleeve. This is everything. Most people are too afraid to bear their souls in such an open manner. And perhaps I’ll be ridiculed for it. What I have to say might upset people. It might make people question what’s going through my head. I don’t blame them. In fact I would probably agree with all of them. Opening your heart this publicly for so many to see is borderline crazy. But then crazy I am. I’d rather be crazy and be true to this feeling then to keep everything bundled up inside all nice and cozy, safe and unharmed. I think C.S. Lewis sums it up best with this;

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”

I cannot go back to the past. As much as I would wish that, to be able to turn back the hands of time back to April two years ago and not do what happened, I’d give anything. To go back and tell myself what I know now, to spare myself this horrible heartache and regret and wondering of “what if”. But I can’t. What’s done is done. It did happen. I cannot ignore it or pretend that what happened between me and him was only a figment of our imaginations. We must look at it, learn from it and hopefully grow from it.  But growth is hard. And sometimes we break along the way. But just like a wildfire devastates a forest, the new growth that comes from it is unimaginable.  We cannot possibly expect to touch someone’s life and not have it affect us. Souls were made to bond with each other. And once they're bonded, it’s stuck. Any cutting off of relationships breaks the soul. It’s unnatural. That’s not to say that what has been broken can’t be mended, but once it’s mended there will always be scars. It’s like an expensive vase that’s been broken and glued back together. It looks the same, it functions the same, but it’s not how it was before. It’s cracked and marred, forever containing the scars of remembrance of being broken. The scars may not hurt as much over time, but every once in a while something comes along and knocks the vase off its pedestal again and new scars are made and mended.

If the vase was never broken, it could never know it could be fixed. But in that it also learns it must try everything to not be broken again and so it places itself higher and higher on the shelves in hopes of being safer. But the higher it goes the less people can admire its beauty, so then it must make the decision; either remain out of sight in fear of being broken or come down off the shelves into the light but become vulnerable in a spot that is much more easy for it to be knocked down again. But by coming down it’s also able to be loved again. But perhaps people won’t love it as much because they look on it and see how often it’s been broken by reckless people.

The scars on the vase don’t make it any less valuable, see. It’s still one of a kind, but the vase doesn’t know that. It looks at all the cracks and damage and deems itself worthless. And why shouldn’t it? That’s the value that the world places on damaged goods. But doesn’t the value come from the Maker?  How valuable of a thing to be made only once! If no one else, the Maker sees the value in damaged goods and the vase can take great joy to know that its Maker looks upon it, even though it’s broken and mended numerous times, and delights in it. The Maker does not say to the vase “You foolish thing! How dare you display yourself so recklessly and get broken!”  No. Instead the Maker gently takes up the broken pieces, glues them back together gently and loving and sets the vase back on display so all may look upon it, see its beauty and give thanks to the Maker for making something so precious and one of a kind. Someday, someone other than the Maker will realize the worth the vase has too.  It just has to be patient.  Sure someone might have seen its beauty before, but they weren’t ready to handle it, broke it and returned it. This discourages the vase because it loved the person that took it, but it was brought back, damaged and then replaced by another vase.  Not everyone who looks upon the vase is able to handle it, even if the vase thinks otherwise. The Maker knows who is good for the vase and will only let the best buyer take it. He will only give it to a person who is deemed worthy to be able to handle something so precious, valuable and fragile and to be able to handle it with gentle love. But until then, the pretty vase must delight in its Maker’s glory and know that it is loved and cherished.

Desire

"Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

Desires. We all have them. for most of us it is the cry of our heart. Our deepest longings. They are the things we want the very most; to be loved (by someone) to belong, to feel accepted, to feel a sense of worth or being capable.

This verse is something that I have been wrestling over for a while now. Most people, and I used to be one of them, I believe interprets this verse with the wrong perspective. We believe that if we delight in YHWH then He will give us what we want (mostly in form of something material). I used to think that way. But a few years ago as I was thinking about this verse God revealed something to me that completely changed how I see this verse. It's not talking about how if we take delight in God He will reward us with something that we've been wanting ( a desire), it's talking about how God HIMSELF gives us and meets our desires- meaning they are already fulfilled and complete in HIM! How amazing is that?! My deepest longings and desires are already met by Christ.

I think that God looks at my desires, sees the good in them, amplifies that and completely discards the bad, in a sense He is shaping and purifying my desires. He can give me something much better than I ever imagined for myself. (but please take heed, I am not saying that God will give us a corvette when we want a ford focus. this is no prosperity gospel) What I'm trying to say is that God will take what we have planned and what we think we want and completely turn it around and give us something completely unexpected and amazing than we could've ever imagined.

I'm not saying that I still don't have desires even though I know all is met through Christ. I don't think anyone would say that. Not truthfully at least. I still have major longings and desires, some of which are good in every way and are wanted with right motives. The trouble comes when we start making our desires into idols, believing that if we don't have them, our life will be somehow incomplete, even though it already is in Christ. It's a problem I have regularly, trying to avoid the temptation of putting my desires on a pedestal above everything else and forgetting that they need to be put before the feet of Christ and laid before him.

Christ meets our desires- "...he will give you the desires of your heart". Every desire, every longing every wanting has already been fulfilled in Christ, but that doesn't mean he won't give you your earthly desires- meaning if you have a desire to be loved, it's already meet 100 fold by God, and you know that, yet you still have a longing to be loved by someone here on earth and share your life with them such as a  husband or wife, I don't think that God will ignore those desires. I believe that if we have those honest sincere longings or wants, God looks at those and grants them to us in due time, when we are at the point in our life where it is right for us to have them. But they will always be a mirror of what God has already given to us and continues to give us. No one can give as much to us as Christ. We are made complete in him.

"Delight yourself in the LORD" what does that even mean? How do you go about doing that? Well I think it starts at centering Christ around your life. Bringing everything you do with Christ in mind. "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." -1 Corinthians 10:31. That means EVERYTHING! and giving the glory to God for all that you do and everything that happens. This is no easy task! It takes you being intentional about it and following through, so that you can grow closer to God. make a plan to read your bible more, maybe that means starting by reading a Psalm a day (corresponding with the day), or whatever it is. Find the joy in the day! His mercies are new every morning, it is such a blessing to be a live each new day. Smell the fresh air, enjoy friends, spread love- devote yourself to growing closer to God, not because we are "obligated" to, but it should be an outpouring of our love for God. The more you spend time with God the more you love Him, and the more you love Him the more you're going to want to spend time with Him. It's a wonderful cycle :)


"Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

Loving One Another

"The world will know we are Christians by our LOVE for one another." -John 13:34-35

So it has come to my attention that perhaps my blogs are a tad bit too harsh on the male population. and perhaps that's the case. so here's the thing- i don't mean to be mean to guys. I'm just frustrated. mostly at myself and i project that frustration out onto the people who it seems easiest to blame and that would be boys. sure, it's easy to blame all my problems on boys being dumb or stupid or incompetent or what have you. But again, that would be the easy way out. I guess my biggest frustration is that I tend to care more for people  than they care for me back (in my opinion). I'm not saying that's the actual case, but it's how I'm viewing it. So that leads me to believing that people are going to let me down every single time because they obviously don't live up to by standards. I feel like if i love and care about someone so much they should also love me back in the same way, in the same amount or more. So by believing that i love/care about people more than those around me and setting my standards to everyone around me, i am continually disappointed because no one meets them, because no one is me.

But loving people is something i do very well. but that's also one of my greatest downfalls. i love/ care about people too much sometimes. I have a hard time letting go. And maybe that's because I've gotten so used to people that i love and care about leaving me all the time, that i just expect it so i do everything i possibly can to make sure they don't want to leave. so i try to be the best friend i can, smothering them with love. love isn't a bad thing, but when it's done with selfish ambition that's where it starts getting me and a lot of other people into trouble.

When we are called to love one another it's not so that we might get loved in return. in fact a lot of the time we wont. and we're going to have to accept that. not everyone that we love will love us back (and I'm not just talking about romantic relationships here). It's hard to know where the lines are and where you should draw them. Something i have a hard time with is how to be "just friends" with some of my guy friends. It's hard when there's a lot of flirting and "cute" talk that goes on, but at the same time my heart is always hoping for the possibility that maybe I might be worth enough to someone for them to take that chance on me. (unhealthy habit, believe me i know).

Letting go of people you love is one of the hardest things we ever learn in life. it's hard because you dont want to let them go because you know how much you care about them and why would it ever be logical for you to let them go? well i've been doing a lot of thinking about that. there are just certain people that you just keep coming back to for reasons that you might not have any idea why. but for whatever reason they keep showing up in your life. but sometimes its not about how often they keep showing up but maybe its about learning when it's time to say goodbye. and it doesn't have to be for good, but it's cutting those ties that are only there keeping you connected, but it's frayed, so you're both detatched from each other.

For me this is especially hard. like i have been saying, i care about people a lot. maybe too much. so the thought of letting go of someone close to me literally breaks my heart. i can hardly bear the thought, even though i know that perhaps letting go is the best thing for the both of us.

Where have all the good men gone?

WHERE ARE ALL THE MEN IN THIS WORLD? Any one know what happened to them all? I don't seem to understand how true man-hood is completely undermined in today's society and all the men are turning into pansy little boys. For the longest time now all it seems like is that all the men in my life are letting me down. And i really don't think i have that high of standards. But time after time after time i am continually disappointed with the way the guys in my life act or handle things. They are disrespectful of the girls in their lives, treating us like they would their guy friends, which is NOT ok. Here's a helpful hint fellas- Us girls aren't guys- so don't treat us like it! we don't get the same humor and we don't find the same things funny as you guys do. Another thing is the whole guys leading girls on. Like c'mon- really? if you like a girl really take the time to see if you should date her or not. if you feel like it's ok to date her- then DATE HER! if not, then say so! for real! let your Yes be Yes and your No be No. But don't do the whole "oh i like you but i still want to be your friend, but i like you more as a friend so let's kinda date, but with no strings attached, k?" thing. because here's what's prolly gonna happen. the girl will get more attached then she lets on, and it will break her heart when it doesn't work out- which chances are it wont work out. I think there needs to be a resurgence of Biblical manhood in today's society. I mean you'd think that being on a Christian campus you'd find some halfway decent guys around, but so far again, most of them have let me and many girls that i know down numerous times. So c'mon guys- Step up! be a man- for real!
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6wO2EUpGqs&feature=related

to be up front, i have no idea what i want to write about. I'll just write about life i guess. that's always good. and i guess we'll see where that takes us on this little blog entry. i guess something we can start with is this. one of my new favorite songs is "just the way you are" by bruno mars. this song actually took me by surprise the first time i heard it. why? because unlike most songs out there with hidden sexual innuendos about guys thinking girls need to be sexy in order to be viewed as beautiful this song is actually one of those rarities that tells girls that guys think we are pretty just the way we are- WHAT A RELIEF! like dang! i don't have to put on mounds of make-up in order to impress a guy or do my hair for hours to "achieve" perfection. it's nice to know that a guy out there somewhere will see us as pretty in our sweats and hair all a mess and no make-up on, our real beauty shining through! it gives me hope. maybe I'll spend less time in the mirror worried that i don't look completely perfect. Seriously, i think that guys need to speak up and tell girls that they look pretty more often. they have no idea how much a simple compliment like that brightens up our day! even if it seems like we just shrug it off like it's nothing, believe me- it means more to us than we let on...

OK. where to next? i guess i could talk about relationships and the mess we make when trying to figure out the ins and outs of guy/girl friendships without the awkwardness of all those romantic feelings... so question of the day- can guys and girls be "just friends"? i wont downplay the importance of having guys and girls as friends. since we think differently it gives new perspectives into situations when dealing with things and having that in a friendship i think is very important. if you're a girl, having a guy's perspective on something that a girl would normally over-dramatize is great! guys tend to be more level headed in certain situations and for guys having a girl's perspective on things is also great because we can tend to see more possibilities. following me so far? but what happens when we start leaning too much on the opposite sex too much for insight on things? if we start opening up too much to them. i think that's where a lot of the mess starts to happen. girls open their hearts up too fast and too often to their guy friends and guys (being naive and oblivious- sry guys) just let us do it. where's the discretion? from both people?  whatever happened to guarding your heart?

let me leave you with this- i think if we started focusing on just being friends and leaving the whole "romantic-ness" up to God to set before us, i think things will go a lot better for everyone. Just focus on being closer to God and growing closer to Him. Uplift and encourage each other- give each other compliments- it's okay! do everything with agape and phileo love!

change

they say the only constant in life is change. kind of ironic if you ask me. but it's also very true. things change. they are constantly changing. if they weren't then life wouldn't be what it is. life changes, is ebbs and flows into new seasons of life- people come in and out of our lives- for better of worse sometimes. and it's okay. we have to be okay with change. why? because it inevitable. it's expected. just as surely as the seasons are bound to change so are the seasons of life we are in. we are never in the same place twice, each day is brand new bringing about it's own form of new experiences. but sometimes change can hurt or leave us feeling empty. like when people who we thought were always going to be there along side us are suddenly gone. it leaves our soul feeling ripped or torn. a gaping hole is now left in our hearts where this person used to be. a space that only they can fill. nothing will ever be the same. nothing can bring them back. life is too short to be living for tomorrows. the way i see it tomorrow isn't real. there is no such thing as tomorrow. there is only today. so why not live in the here and now, taking each moment in, cherishing it, remembering it? Dont be afraid of telling someone how you feel or taking chances- because today is all we have.
the other thing about life that we have to know comes down to 3 simple words: life moves on. whether we're aware of it or now. it keeps going. the seasons change- summer to fall, fall to winter, winter to spring. and thus the cycle of life continues. expect change. embrace it. God has all things in his hand. nothing surprises him. So ready yourself for whatever comes your way. life your life, not someone else's. dont get caught up in looking ahead in life that you forget to stop and smell the flowers or see the beauty of the fall leaves or watch clouds pass by. Make memories with the people you love, because we never know how long we have because things change. So make the most of right now.

this one is called... BOYS.

So here's the thing. why do we as girls bash boys so much? i dont think it's fair. i mean yeah, sure, they can be a little clueless, but can't we give them the benifit of the doubt? i feel like girls have such a low view of ourselves and of guys and we either think that we're not good enough or that guys are just dumb a**es and are out to ruin our lives. so here's the thing. when a girl has a crush on a guy- it's fine. but a guy is still just a guy. he doesn't have to talk to you. in fact he probably wont. is it a victory when he talks to us for over an hour on fb chat? is that even a real converstation? samething goes for texting. fact is guys dont communicate same way girls do. goooo figure! what's holding us back from having a real conversation with them? so here's the thing: the guy is giving what he can in the context of the kind of relationship it is. it is nothing more than a friendship. they're not obligated to anything more. i dont know if i make any sense but i just think it's stupid to get mad about a relationship that doesn't even exist.

Devotion - Hillsong United

Here's a video i made :) glitter in the air- p!nk

roller coaster rides

so here’s the thing about life: it’s unexpected. and the more unexpected it becomes the more i am forced to rely on God because he’s the only one i can count on 130% to ALWAYS be there for me and not let me down. this summer sure has tested me a lot. i’ve grown a lot and i’ve certainly royally screwed things up. to talk about one particular matter i’ve recently had a friendship that has been renewed after about a year and half of constant turmoil consisting of bickering, bitterness, a lot of pride and little forgiveness. i care deeply about this person and sincerely want what’s best for them- even if that included letting them go out of my life. so i was completely surprised when one day i received a text from them apologizing for everything and wanting to start fresh. i didn’t even hesitate to say yes. partially because for the past year and half i had been praying for this and partially because i too wanted to start fresh with this friendship. it’s not too often that friendships can be repaired like this, even in the Christian community. for about 3 weeks it’s been wonderful. i feel like we’ve caught up more in the 3 weeks than we had in over a year. but i’ve also learned that i cannot hold on to blessings too tightly. because God gives and God takes away. i cannot idolize this person again. i have to constantly remind myself that God is more important than the gifts He provides. so when today i received a text from this person saying that they need space, not only was i caught off guard but i was once again shown the reality of who God is. GOD is the reason why i am here on this earth and i am here on this earth to GLORIFY God. not my self. not others- God.
so now comes the lesson of lessening my grip on people and holding tighter onto God. it’s hard, especially when it’s people i really care about. but i cannot deny the reality of who God is for a person that cannot compare to even the shadow of God. people give may give me whiplash full of emotions and whatever else comes with trying to figure out being ‘just friends’ with the opposite sex, but God is my constant, never changing, my Rock and the Love of my life.

Winter Song- Sara Bareilles & Ingrid Michaelson

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higer standards

don't you ever wish that "that special someone" would just like you back? it's so frustrating it seems that guys (and girls) never seem to get it. and so we lower our expectations of each other. we figure if we don't expect anything then we can't ever be disappointed and we can't ever be hurt. and maybe that's true. but then we miss out on love. C.S.Lewis has the most amazing quote. it says,

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”

wow. to love is to set your heart out there and hope, pray that the other person can feel the love seeping through your heart at them. it doesn't mean they will love you back. no. love is more than being loved back. that kind of love leads to conditions and terms and can no longer be called love.
but let's get back to this higher standards bit. what if men aren't all pigs and boys are all stupid? what if girls actually do know what they want and we aren't manipulative, rather screaming the songs of our hearts our longing to be loved? what if we're all just broken people in need of a loving God?
so, girls, instead of demeaning guys and getting upset when your crush doesn't text you back, don't get upset. one: he's a guy. they don't communicate the same way we do.
two: you two aren't in any sort of commitment and he is not obligated to text you back. tho yes, you're right, it would be nice if he did. if he does- great! if not, don't get upset.

and guys- seriously, give girls more credit. we know more of what we want in a guy than you might think. and it's really not that hard. we're not looking for "the perfect guy" (though i can see where you might think that. i blame chick flicks and Disney) we're looking for a man after God's own heart that shares his love with the people around him. a man than understands how to capture a woman's heart and pursue her and make her feel special. to make her feel loved. it's okay to tell us we look pretty on occasion- or as often as you want!

so to make a end to all this hear me out; not all guys are out to break our precious hearts, girls. and girls don't want to be controlling or manipulative to get guys attention or whatever you think we're trying to do. let's be more understanding and edifying to each other. lifting each other up to be men and women of God!

sleep

sleep. some view it as just catching up on rest from too many late nights studying for that stupid exam that didnt even matter. sleep for me is much more than just closing my eyes and dreaming for a few hours. it's about taking 8 or so hours of giving time up to God saying "God, i cannot go on any more, i must rest to recharge" it's surrendering, it's sacrifice. maybe just a small sacrifice, but enough to say im still human. i cannot get all the things i want done in my time, things will work out regardless though. So lack of sleep, or thinking we dont need sleep is almost prideful... though we must take into account that some people just can't fall asleep. this has been my life lately. it seems that no matter how hard i try i cannot get to sleep. So i pray. i pray that God lift the burdens and worries off of my mind and give me peace. Read Psalm 4:8 :) a good friend told me about this verse and so i wrote it and put it over my bed and read it before i sleep and i have to say that i have been sleeping better.

seeking Him

i've been thinking lately, how often do i seek after God? i go to a christian school, i have good christian friends, i go to church on sunday AND wendesday and yet i dont have time for God? how does that make sense? When was the last time i really took time to spend time with God? think  of a dating relationship. when a coulple starts dating then want to know everything about each other. they asks questions and do thinks to get to know each other better. they pursue. they take notes on what each one likes and so on... you get the point. So refer that back to getting to know God. reading our bibles or reading thought-provoking books (piper and driscoll are always good choices) are one way to understand God, know His heart because he's revealing himself through scripture. are you following me here? why, out of all the relationships in my life am i NOT investing in the most important one? instead of scheduling God into my day why not schedule my day around God? hmm. this is just me thinking. and for you now to think about :)