no one to blame but myself

i should've let go. i should've just moved on. none of this would've happened. i wouldn't be in the place i'm in now. things could've been so different. this whole mess could've been avoided and i wouldn't have to feel this much pain still. people tell me i should just let it go... a lot easier said than done when it haunts you everyday and you can't escape it. memories are hard to fade.